Divine Connection / Day 9 of Gratitude Blog
I am thankful for having such a clear connection with my spirit guides. What people don’t realize is when someone is incredibly psychic, they have a very specific brain chemistry. Brain chemistry that makes it very difficult to get help with while also maintaining your spiritual integrity. I don’t have professional resources to get help with my brain. Not any one verifiable or legitimated by anything other than your own resonance/intuition.
Much of my life has been concerned with how to fit in society. How can I act normal as if I am being inundated with an entire other universes worth of Psychic information fields all around us. How to manage my anxiety that has been exponentially compounded by something I cannot tell other people about. The energies. The invisible world.
And to know that if I chose to share what I was really experiencing in all those classrooms I’m school growing up, and all of those social interactions, and all of those job interviews, can you imagine what would happen? I would probably be blacklisted, or punished, or ostracized, or even medically sedated. Because that IS a harsh reality in this world.
Not only that, but every single night, without exception, I am visited by entities that you would find in horror movies or fantasy books. Some friendly ones, some not so friendly ones. Growing up they were mostly unfriendly.
When I have a conversation with someone I have to block out the four or five other voices I hear behind them who are their spirit guides or non-physical beings trying to use me to connect with them. Which often made me come off sounding aloof or disinterested.
The first 20 years of my life were about learning how to focus when there is a city of lights going on in my brain responding to things that people can’t see with their own eyes. And not knowing how to articulate what I’m experiencing to people made me feel the most powerless. This is something I still struggle with to an extent even today.
I’m thankful that I find myself reaching a place now where I’ve taught myself how to create my own universe with my own boundaries. How to handle and manage the features of my own unique universe containing these “visitors,” or lingering energies, poltergeists etc. to account for.
It has taken every ounce of discipline I have in my being in order to create a life for myself where I feel safe and at home in my world.
I am thankful that I still have my sanity. Because I know there are many people like me that have not made it. I am thankful that I’ve been able to integrate these practical disciplines of human experience with my otherworldly perceptions and nature.
I am thankful that I am learning more and more how to accept myself in every feature of my being every day.